That's no way to treat your baguette!

It's been effing ages!

2008-03-05T21:07:39Z

Hiya! Sorry for the long absence....

Don't worry not alot happened to me during that time :)

How about you guys? (Anyone?)

I'm seeing Siouxsie in Feb!

2008-01-14T21:08:20Z

OMG OMG OMG *squeeee*

rammy007 @ 2008-01-01T13:55:00

2008-01-01T19:00:11Z

Sorry but....

My dog:

An actually GOOD picture of me:

My socks:

The beautiful view from my house:

Coming soon: Some crappy paintings I did.

New Camera!!!

2008-01-01T03:07:48Z

Yes quite frankly I was born on New Year's Eve... but looky at the new pictures i took of my room and stuff!

My bed:

My stuff:

Some art:

Posters:

My foot:

I feel like such a camera whore :/

Wacom Fairy

2007-12-26T01:41:44Z

Oops I forgot this

EEEEEEEEEEEE!

2007-12-26T00:08:48Z

I got a Wacom pad! this is my first attempt at drawing with it. It's not very good but I thought I might post it :/

It's almost Christmas already?

2007-12-13T20:32:21Z

I was listening to some music whilst (did I just say "whilst"?) drawing in my room. This music was just some stuff I haven't listened to since summer vacation (just some fun summer-y stuff like The Pixies, Lush, The The, and X. Not the early fast paced X but the later more mellow X.) Not that anyone else has even heard of these bands, but they mean all sorts of fun things to me.

They mean warm summer nights spent staring at the stars, they mean late night drives with friends, they mean watching fireworks on the 4th of July. They mean swimming at the lake ,grudges,failed dates, low expectations and doing things on a whim... They mean boredom, warmth and discovery. They mean going to see relatives. They mean Sunday mornings when it's raining outside and long nights spent sleeping in nothing but underwear. They mean looking snazzy in cargo shorts and t-shirts.
I dunno.... It means ALOT to me.

I didn't know why my old CDs and iPod playlists remind me of such things. Music is transporting, beautiful, fun, emotional and always has been there to help me get through life.
I know what I just said makes no sense at all.
I feel somewhat sad but thrilled at the same time. Is it normal to feel this way?

CON!

2007-12-10T22:28:02Z

Sorry for that last bout of angst, THAT was humiliating I'll just keep that post around to remind me to stop being a whiny little bitch. OK on with my story:

Over the weekend I attended the NYC Anime Fest. I got a buttload of freebies, pocky, stickers and manga. I have to say the cosplay and EGL dresses were amazing as well ^^ There were even some voice acting auditions and screenings of new series. However, (I hate to sound snobby) sooo many people were wearing those hideous and unflattering bondage pants :/

But still for all my comic-loving nerdyness it was a dream come true :)

GAH!!!

2007-11-06T23:50:37Z

I NEEED SOMEONE TO ASK ME OUT! THERE'S NO ONE IN THIS FVCKIN SCHOOL T-T

The soon to be 17 year old virgin.
It's not sex that I want... I just feel very unattractive... no boy will even show the slightest bit of interest in me in my life.
Why don't I just stop being a pussy and end it? No one will come to my funeral and in heaven I can meet someone who shares my interests like Kurt or Van Gogh.... or some homeless guy who got run over by a car.
No I'm not overeacting. My school is filled with fucking "I'm so GANGSTA! Look at me, yo" white boys that wear pants around their ankles and popped collars and yet they make fun of ME for wearing a black dress :(
This school fucking sucks!
I wanna die. I do feel quite emo. I doubt anyone on LJ even likes me as a friend.
And WHY do I care about this? What makes me feel even worse is that I think I'm superficial and see love as a measurement of character. Is that what I want? Some trophy boyfriend? That makes me hate myself even more!
16 years old.... I'll be FUCKING 17 SOON. I'm an ugly worthless piece of shit.
I don't want some creep to see this as an opportunity to say anything gross, or whatever...

EGL

2007-11-01T23:26:07Z

Oh, by the way, I'm finally gonna take some advice from awhile back and try the Elegant Gothic Lolita look. I'm afraid my style's cutesy-ness is starting to conflict with the more traditional goth- thing I was going for. I have some bows and a baby-doll blouse (and the cutest shoes on the face of the Earth) . It's worth a try...

Those pictures I posted I took while visiting family in Florida. So I had to dress a tad more normal :(

If my close family were not stuck in the disposable-camera stone age, I might have some piccys of me in my CT clothes. I dress slightly more "dark" here and wear more makeup (but tastefully. not The Crow or anything), but it 's just my taste in clothes. I've actually been told I'm too happy to dress the way I do and listen to Siouxsie and whatnot :(

P.S. The word "goth" makes me cringe sometimes. "Oh, she's an Elegant Lolita" sounds sort of better.

This is Halloween!

2007-11-01T23:05:34Z

FUN :) went trick or treating with Kink and Stazzy's fam and met some interesting people. I was a black cat ^^, Kink was a psychopathic hippie. Stazzy was.... I really don't know. Colorful. A skittle, perhaps?

One house had KING SIZE CADBURY DAIRY MILK!!! :D

The one holiday where it is perfectly acceptable to dress like a freak and go from house to house getting free candy :)
Only Christmas is better than this.

ZOMG

2007-10-29T15:36:41Z

I attended a school Halloween dance with Emma (who went as Dr. Frankenfurter) I went as Death (from the Sandman.) NO ONE got what we were supposed to be and about 90% of all girls were dressed as sluts. Like sexy kitties, sexy little Bo Peeps, sexy french maids, playboy bunnies, sexy nurses, even a sexy tinman ~_~ Seriously. Me and Emma were only ones there who's underwear was'nt exposed. Save it for the bedroom, girls. There are little kids out and about who don't want to see your tits.

The music sucked ass too. No real halloween stuff. Just some shitty rap everyone was grinding to.
I wish they had Siouxsie's "Halloween" or at least the monster mash... I doubt anyone in this school has even heard of those. The only Halloween song played was thriller :(

rammy007 @ 2007-10-18T19:23:00

2007-10-18T23:50:47Z

Kellyology

Let others know a little more about yourself, repost this as your name followed by "ology."

MOUTHOLOGY

Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?
A. Ranch. It's quite unhealthy.

Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. IHOP. Not exactly fast food but - OH C'MON IT'S PANCAKES! XD

Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
A. A nice Japanese restaurant in NYC. I think it's called Totoya or something. Great sushi rolls.

Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
A. It depends. If there's poor service I leave an okay (but not huge) tip. I leave alot if it's good, though.

Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
A. Mocchi (a kind of japanese dessert) really hard to find anywhere but oh-so-good.

Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
A. Extra cheese, spinach, anchovies.

Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
A. Cream cheese and some kind of fruit spread. Preferably strawberry rhubarb.

TECHNOLOGY

Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A. Palm trees and a mediteranian type beach ._. What? I share the computer with my parents.

Q. How many televisions are in your house?
A. About 6. It's a pretty big house... Two of them are old and don't work.

BIOLOGY

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. righty

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. Nope. Never.

Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. When I was about 9. I was a fat little sugar fiend back then.

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A. I had to help my Mom get a new chair and ottoman into the house. Phew ._.

Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. No. Not really. Thank God.

BULL[CRAP]OLOGY

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. No. I'd be paranoid for the rest of my life then.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. A nice, exotic but still modern name like Avery.

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. black, green, neon colors.

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. Nope. That'd be pretty stupid. Even as a little kid I thought that :/

Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
A. Nope. I'm only 16, how could I have done that already?

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. I was never in danger in the first place.

DAREOLOGY

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. Sure. If they're hot I'd do it for free. The money's just the icing on the cake.

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A. No. I like my fingers.

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. If I can still have a paper diary and facebook, sure.

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. Oh no! I'd rather NOT have some stranger see me naked.

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. I love spicy food, so sure.

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. No. That would be too sad. I hate seeing what's on the news everyday let alone actually taking a life myself.

DUMBOLOGY

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A. A couple ones...

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: Eh.... It WAS ok before every dweeb on the face of the Earth started quoting it or wearing "Vote for Pedro" shirts. It got annoying after a while.

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: Both. Mostly carpet upstairs and in the basement, the ground floor is wood.

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: I Stand.

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: It depends. If they are annoying, mean, or something bad, then no way. If they're cool then sure.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: One. They have pink leopard print soles. I don't wear them often.

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: No. I'm a good child :)

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: A starving artist or a scientist of sorts.

LASTOLOGY

Q: Last Friend you talked to?
A. Mana the lesbian from heaven.

Q: Last person who called you?
A. My sister. Who lives far away...

Q: Person you hugged?
A: Alex. I hug him randomly at times.

FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
A: 777

Q: Season?
A: Autumn

CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
A: My sister.

Q: Watching?
A. The screen. Some weird shit on YouTube.

Q: Worrying about?
A. Failing chem cuz I'm not too terribly bright.

RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: Back to sleep.

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A. Go to a ComicCon or something. I don't get out much.

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A. Across the Universe.

Q: Do you smile often?
A: Sorta. Smirking, grinning or smiling just a little bit.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I'm kinda shy actually, but I do try to make conversation...

Q. What's your favorite soup?
A. Vegetable.

Q. What do you think of your friends on the internet?
A. Nicer than most people I meet elsewhere in this miserable little town. I do wish I can hang out with you guys in real life but that's not very realistic :/

Sad winking???

2007-10-15T16:04:40Z

Gah! I'm so lazy when it comes to posting!

I'm getting a C in oil painting even though I feel drawing and painting are the only things I'm ok at T-T aparently I "stylize" things too much. I guess El Greco and Piccaso were never my teacher's favorites... I'm not saying that I'm as good as them, but... you know. I want my art to NOT be super-realistic. that's just boring :P

My after-school-art-progam teacher says that what my school teacher says is bull and I should be getting a higher grade... at least that's something. ;(

Block scheduling is hell when you have ADHD

And on a different note my wekend was uneventful yet relaxing in a cozy, autumn sorta way.

Hot daaaaamn

2007-09-26T23:03:16Z

It's been ages! I need a good posting to relieve all my anxieties :)

I'm really bored and I feel kinda sick for starters. Stuffy nose, coughing, and shit. It might just be allergies (I hope) or the beginning of a really bad cold.

No dating yet (of course) Femistry (so called because my chem class only has like 4 boys) is frustrating because a few girls whisper about how sad they are because they and their boyfriends broke up. WELL AT LEAST THEY HAD BOYFRIENDS IN THE FIRST PLACE. Damn blonde, skinny, pretty girls >.<
Boys here only like girls for their looks. They just use them for sex and leave them. No "having anything in common" or anything like that. It really sucks

Might as well accept that I will have no love life and die an old maid.
It's getting old, huh? It's really terrible but I can't stop thinking about it. It makes me so depressed...

So anyways Pokemon Pearl is going OK. My strongest pokemon is only my lv. 48 Torterra though (I always keep my first pokemon the strongest. A weird little OCD habit of mine.) I need to train by fighting more strong wild pokemon :D
I neeed a good Wi-Fi connection so I might go to Starbucks with Geoff (whom a traded alot with) sometime. Even though they wipe out good independent coffee shops and have sorta funky-tasting coffee but I guess it's better than McDonald's where I risk getting sat on by fatties and eating a dead cow.

Sorry, I just overflowed with horrid Indy-kid dorkyness, huh? Aw well ^^

Word vomit

2007-08-28T22:57:44Z

I got a new haircut! It's black now and short n' spikey. I wish I had a camera to show it off ~_~

School starts tomorrow. I have no "school spirit" whatsoever, it's all so foolish and phoney (death to cheerleaders ) At least I have art and chemistry and shit. It could be fun...

WHAAA?

2007-08-21T01:47:15Z

I'm addicted to Pokemon Yellow o__o I forgot how friggin FUN it is :D I started a new game not too long ago and my pokemon are already around level 60 (except my level 70 Mewtwo) I'm gonna see if I can get them up to 100! Time to use the missingno. cheat :D rare candy for all!

rammy007 @ 2007-08-20T20:11:00

2007-08-21T00:18:02Z

Oh my. I had no idea there was so much sexual innuendo in Rocco's modern life. I just remembered there little hang out used to be called the chokey chicken ;D There's countless other stuff that escaped me when I was little but I seem to recall Heffer using a milking machine and ummm...... really enjoying it ^^'

How can Nick get away with it???

Not much to say

2007-08-19T03:22:15Z

Ugh... I just went to a town hick fair (my parents dragged me). It turned out to be somewhat fun in the end. This week I hung out with Iden and went to Alex's Birthday party (he got a car !^^) Social situations still make me feel pretty nervous... I almost threw up at Alex's party because he had friends from NJ I never met before :( They probably think I'm weird or something.

On a lighter subject: I got more sketches finished today than a graphic novelist could dream of! Ooooooh I wish I had a scanner!

pic-a-tures

2007-08-14T21:40:58Z

Remember that these are all from the same day. I never really got around to posting them :P

Gah!

2007-08-14T05:35:27Z

It's so late here! I can't get to sleep... I regret drinking all those diet cokes :(

rammy007 @ 2007-08-13T19:02:00

2007-08-13T23:03:14Z

Ask me a question about each of the following topics, no matter how rude, sexual, or confidential:

1. friends
2. family
3. sex
4. music
5. drugs
6. love
7. livejournal
8. anything else you've ever wondered and wanted to ask

Me

2007-08-08T16:37:35Z

Yup.Eww,right?

Ugh....

2007-07-20T23:53:04Z

I need more friends. Not just web friends, I mean actual people I can relate to and have come over and shit (no offense to any people reading this who ARE friends). I just feel like veeeeeery few people understand me... or even vaguely want to associate with the likes of me. I should be less shy I guess, or stop trying to get attention by freaking people out.

Sometimes I feel like there are two sides of me: The one who is unknowingly self destructive: constantly telling dirty jokes, saying weird things and otherwise getting the wrong kind of attention; and then there's my core, just... me. Scared, shy, alienated, and perhaps a bit hurt. I am and always will be the girl I used to be.

I'm so sick of feeling like this. And I really miss Kate...

Transformers! Robots in disguise!

2007-07-17T00:36:03Z

I just got back from seeing transformers! It even had a Mountain Dew vending
machine robot (yaaaaay! Soda for all!)

Shia LeBouf is by far the cutest little mussy-person-thing ever! Did a great job, too ^^d my only complaint is that the robots fighting over the cube (OMFG! THE CUUUBE!) thing got old fast.

On a side note: I dyed (and cut) my hair again. Old people seem to either admire me or look at me with disdain because of my hair. Little kids usually seem to be curious about it or something clicks in their small brains saying "that ain't natural!" *fear*

I swear this town is nuts...
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I'm hungry... need food...